Although this blog seems so ‘cool’, (like a field with few people walking around) it certainly does have it ‘quite’ visitor. Maybe the one who visit this blog are the type that doesn’t like crowded place. The one with sentimental value and like the feel of calmness. If so then, this is the correct place to be at :-)

It is not that I don’t want to frequently update the entry. It is also not that I didn’t care about the (quietly) people that visited but…at this moment, I have a big project going on. It all began with a proposal and I was picked and paid to do it. And if I manage to ‘craft’ a beautiful written propose and passed, then there will be a LOT more in for me. (Enough for me to buy a brand new car, I suppose?)

You see, I don’t spend all my time on the computer. Sometimes there are things offline awaits me. Truthfully, I’m not that bad chasing money anymore (like in the younger days). Even though I’m not rich, I do have enough money to spend (well, at least on my own) and didn’t have any debt to worry about. At my age, I was able to manage my financial (quite) well. With that, suddenly I felt; what the hell if I have a lot of money but the feeling of emptiness is in me? Almost all the time… Looking back, all those happiness had gone while I’m busy searching for money.

Maybe this is a fate of life. Or maybe it was my mistake? But then, who give a damn anyway? I have to live and walk on as if nothing happens. Deep down in my heart, sometimes I hate life. As if nothing means anything anymore. Beautiful but deadly. Poor but deceiver. Rich but empty.

Well, got to go. Someone knocking on my door. Whoever you are who read this, thanks for visiting. If no new entry posted, then you know I’m still struggling to finish the proposal. I’ll be back with a happy story, or…a bad one. We’ll just wait. (Usually good things are too good to be true in my life.) Hopefully, success! (yeah, right. Whatever…)

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